Happy birthday nits.. this one's for u

I still don't remember how we met but what I do remember is our fights, leg pulling, my unreasonable denands (as per u) and our till 40 pact;-)

You have been my mentor, confidante whenever I needed you. You always stood for me. Ur unconditional love nd support.

As time passed our friendship became stronger.. Someone rightly said friendship doesn't have boundaries, even though u jst have time for me on weekends even for a call.... I still love the way ur. So honest and straight about ur feelings.

Never imagined our friendship will come this long. I could have said all this to you over a call but I choose to write coz its you who made me realise that I could write and good or bad but u have always liked my writings.

Sailed through quite a bit of my own problems just coz u were there to support me. Your piece of advice acts as "just wat was need to sail through".

Love u nits.. ur the best and I thank god fr having u in my life... happy birthday darling. Hope this compensates my last misses :-)

Waiting for my sunshine

Its a feeling of darkness all around. A feeling as strong as someone's presence. Making me feel bounded in a dungeon with no way out...

A feeling that's killing me from within. Making me a stranger to myself.

A feeling of hatred for the world around me. Making me run towards darkness.

Its growing day by day with no measure of how deep I have come in. No way I can go back... left with no option other than just move ahead...

Hoping for a door that will take me to my sunshine....

Wishing for the day to come soon before the darkness sweeps away my hope and I forget what's sunshine is...

Just when u....

Just when u think everything is right...
Just when u think u hv everything u wanted...
Just when u felt love...
Just when u feel the happiness u ever waited for...
Just when u tried to relive...

It all slips out of ur sight like it was never there....

Awaiting Happiness........

Another year passed by. Seems like seen dead ends of happiness and sadness in this Year. Met new people in Life...

A best pal/Mentor settling in life, entering in to a new phase of her life. But soon the happiness got faded in to sadness with a friend/ colleague moving out of my life quietly giving a shock to all. Fears that we would never see him ever, never hear him; never talk to him surrounded us. We had a professional interaction as normal as with a team member or someone you share your desk with but still the gap that he left was felt big... A feeling to meet him one last time was so strong that it broke all the gates that tried to stop us. Being there was just what mattered.

Made new friends, few whom I thought would walk with me a long way proved to be just another mistake of trusting a bluff master. Lesson learned was “Trusting someone in a corporate world is the biggest mistake one could ever do”. I had however learnt it after making that mistake.
 Time passed and we moved on at least we all pretended that way.

Life doesn’t stops for anyone, but it does get affected and loses its pace. Leaving the past memories behind but when I think now, have these memories been actually left behind?? Is it just the past or still a part of present?

What feels right to us is always wrong in others eye. What we get is not what we want but we learn to live with it. Year had ended and I feel standing at the same place where I was a year back......

What happens when that happens what u dint expected to happen!!!!!!

It happens all the time with us. What is expected never happens and what happens is never expected by us and we name it as LIFE.   

At times the unexpected gives us pain and we curse the destiny, and whe it gives us happiness we thank god.

If all that we expect happens will it give us that much of happiness......... coz that was what was bound to happen.

What make you more happier passing in exam which u expected to fail in or passing in a exam u were already good at?

The unexpected leaves a strong impact. Thats y surprises gives us a shock.

Some days are memorable because the unexpected happened.... today is one of those days in my life :-)

Decisions taken right or wrong.......... Just can't change anything now!!!!!!!!!!

“Don’t look back at what’s gone, if it’s meant for you it will come to you sooner or later and if it doesn’t it was never meant for you”.  So true but yet difficult to accept....

Making a relationship is easy but maintaining that is difficult, one mistake and your relation can just no more be there. At times what you think and what you do contradict simply because you are so stressed about whether things will work in the way you thought that you ignore where your steps are heading towards.

Y is it that people who say I am like an open book are actually the once who have hidden a lot of things within them. Can 2 people have such an understanding that without speaking or expressing they know what other wants or wishes?  

A fear of losing someone doesn’t allows us to say what we feel and when we try overcoming our fears it’s already too late. At times when I look back in my past I feel whether my past was better or my present. Y can’t I just pick moments from past which I like to posses and remove all that has happened wrong. It’s my life but still I have no control over it. Choice is mine but options are limited yes or a no don’t have a middle way to it. The conflict between Heart and Mind is never ending. Decisions taken are actually decision which heart does for you and instincts the mind to abide by. If it turns the way it was suppose to be all credit goes to heart and if it doesn’t then I question why doesn’t my mind works when required.

At times my decision affects not only me but others connected to that decision and trust me the feeling of guilt within kill you if your decision has somehow harmed your near ones.  But again can’t do much about it as I have no control over my past.......

Wish List..............

While i was just thinking about what should be my next blog on. I was blank at first, nothing convincing came in mind......wondered whether i will get any thing to write on but wanted to write.

At times your wish list is so long that you dont understand which one to fulfill first. Its easy to say prioritize your wishes but when you have more than one wish at the same time and you want all of them what do you do then? still wondering me too.As soon as your one wish is fulfilled you have more wishes. I still remember not long before when i was seeing in the sky and wished to go at a place where there is peace and silence. No cellphone around no office work  no tension and no thoughts in mind. I am sure most of you want the same. But will we actually like it when we get this... addicted with these things so much that now if i dont check my cellphone for halfanhour i feel something is missing. With all our wishes come the pros and cons of it that makes us more worried... Feel like shopping till infinity but considering my account balance i remember the basic formula once learned in economics "earnings-savings=expenditure". So the wishlist of earning like hell still remains a question. And will i be ever satisfied????

At times work pressure makes me feel like leaving everything and sit and relax at home but just then weekend comes and i feel bored sitting idle at home. We all strive hard and run to get that balance in life but just dont know when will we able to get that right balance atleast i m still wondering. We get happy when our near ones get what they wish but at the same time get disappoined thinking when will we get what we wanted..... The wish list will never end untill our souls are alive....